lmfao i remember like 2 years ago i got really thin over the summer and when i went to see my family at the holidays they all commented on it like thanks……. no one’s gonna tell me if i’m to skinny now or if i was fat before? i love it. being 14 and self conscious was great 

i’ve definitely gained some weight within the past month which is good, i look considerably healthier than i have for most of my life and in general i think i’m just… functioning better? idk. improvement 

so often i have like these moments where i talk about something thats really normal to me and then people are like “wtf i had no idea you did/experienced this” and then i remember that i talk to no one on a daily basis 

queue me rolling my eyes into the 5th dimension

>trying 2 fall asleep

>anxiety

im going to meet jamie before the end of this year

ok but besides that. i am good looking and smart and fun and all around desirable i’m very 

right now

thers a gif on my dash of an anime that i got rlly into and was in a friend group with this one person who ended up : ) quite terrible and seeing it ver and over again is fucking me up a bit tbh considering that was like exactly a year ago 

ok since none of you have ever known me rl i will explain a thing that happens to me: sometimes after a really long period of feeling bad i’ll go into a 1-2 day stretch (actually the longest was about 5) where i’m literally so inexplicably happy that I can’t help but laugh and smile a lot and cry randomly and it’s incredibly embarassing even though its nice to be able to feel good for a change

im lamme and gay i was watching the mv for 9 and started crying during that 2 seconds when they’re throwing baseballs around at the end